I don't know what your native language is, but imagine how this exact same thing feels for someone whose first language is not English .. All the same scariness plus we may not even know what the words mean! And looking them up in a dictionary leads to a whole other kind of rabbit hole, and even if you understand the definitions and use in normal human language, it does very nearly jack shit to help understand wtf it means in the programming context.

I know this, I've tried to learn programming since I was, what, 8? In a vacuum too, since I lived in the middle of fucking nowhere in Norway for the first 17 years of my life. Imagine only having the MS-DOS or PC-DOS handbooks and some GWBASIC code written by Bill Gates to start out with. And the vocabulary of a 8 year old kid whose grasp of the English language is limited to what he learned during 6 months of school in Australia when he was 5...

I'm almost creeping up on 48 now and still can't code for shit.